Aim high, ride easy, trust the Universe
Have you ever found yourself lost well after the fact? Like your aimless driving was actually heading in a direction until, well, it wasn’t!
I had something like that happen to me recently. I didn’t realise how off track I was with something / someone and now I can’t believe the distance we’ve travelled. The small gaps I noticed but excused away have all of a sudden become a chasm and it seems non-sensical. If I’m honest I knew that it was happening and, sporadically, I would try to reconnect but soon - sooner than I really understood - it become easier not to, apparently. It wasn’t a conscious choice but it was a choice nonetheless.
For my non-horsey friends here’s the ‘yawn’ part! I was riding today and my horse did this ‘thing’ - he often does it and I carry on obliviously. Today I didn’t. I immediately corrected it and, no surprise, it changed everything (for today's ride anyhow).
That old saying ‘you don’t know what you don’t know’ echoed in my mind but I was left thinking - well why now? What made it happen today?
The truth is I don’t know. I don’t know why I hear certain things time and again but don’t implement them. I don’t know why I let things slip. I don’t know why I got lost, and probably will again. I don't know why I didn't correct my course when I knew I was lost. I just don't know. But what I do know, and what I think matters, is that I found my way again - well at least I’m no longer lost and that counts - right?