Aim high, ride easy, trust the Universe
I understand that death isn't finite. I get that whilst we can't see our lost people they are still there. I also get that our intellect and our emotions don't always meet at the same time.
Harry, my Jack Russell, died a short while ago and I still find myself echoing around his space. We have a busy and small house but he has left a big gaping hole of energy. This quote, from The Life of Pi resonated with me: "He left me so unceremoniously it broke my heart I have to believe there was more than my own reflection staring back at me. I know it. I felt it. Even if I can't prove it. In the end I suppose the whole of life becomes a letting go".
On most days I weigh up that, as an emotional person, heart and head don't always meet in the middle so I go for an average. Some days I'm bat s..t crazy (Thanks Tobes) and other days I'm perfectly measured but it all comes out in the wash - I look for the overall in everything, that the good outweighs the bad. It's just perspective, right? It's just how we see things?
Let's be clear here - I'm not wandering around in pitty-ville wringing my hands at how hard my life is. I'm talking about a pet. Some of my closest and dearest friends are, on a daily basis, dealing with far bigger elements like losing their life-partner, serious illness, decisions that seem insurmountable - there is simply no comparison.
I'm not measuring grief/ doubt or crippling indecision though I simply saying that it has to be acknowledged in whatever small, messy or unplanned manner. So if you're sad - for whatever reason, big or small, know that I am too (if that helps!) Not right now - but I will be. Again. And then it will be OK. Again. Because it is, always, OK. If we choose it that way.
"... in the end I suppose the whole of life becomes a letting go ..."
Here's to letting go.