Compartments in my heart
I've come to realise I can be happy for you and sad for me all at the same time. Does your heart do that too? Have compartments to it?
I'm happy today because my love is hanging out with her daughter. I'm sad for me because it's cold and grey and the day seems long. Its such a conundrum isn't it. Feeling I mean!
I call days like this 'grey sweater days' - years ago my sister gave me a grey sweater and whenever I was feeling a bit blue (clearly its a colour-description day too) I would wear her sweater and it made me feel like she was hugging me all day, so the blue feeling would go away! I am literally wearing same said grey sweater as I type this.
So the question begs, with these compartments, do we sit in either one or do we just observe them happening and allow it all to merge or submerge?
A darling friend called me yesterday to unpack some feelings and where we ended was 'less judging, more observing' so I think that's where I'm going to sit.
My sister likes to call raising their delicious son a 'science experiment' and it is really just that, isn't it? Life. The science experiment continues.
Happy grey sweater day my lovelies. I love you. We can do hard things.