Believe in yourself, princess

I don’t imagine my princesses in the same way as others do, either kissing their husband in marital perfection or the cynical version where they are drunk in the kitchen, living out their happily ever after in a haze of poor decisions. No, I think Cinderella becomes a fashion designer, stops smoking and takes back her […]

You can’t give people what they want

You can’t give people what they want but you can give them something else. You can give them understanding – of yourself – there’s truth and connection there and, as women, we need to more honest with ourselves and our loves, everything depends on that.  If you want into my heart, here’s the truth, I’m […]

Between feeling and not feeling

The longer I live the harder it is to discern between the stronger emotions. They all spill into each other where they begin. The longer I go, though, the more I can tell between not feeling and feeling. For this is all that seems to matter.  Not feeling puts me on the sideline, makes the […]

The bully you live with…

Today seems like a good day to talk about anxiety – starving off a panic attack isn’t for the faint-hearted. Surea and I were sitting having breakfast at my dining room table, it was a Sunday morning, all my animals were happy and healthy, the day was beautiful, I was in my favourite place – […]

Love is love

It’s 3:15 on a Thursday morning. I can’t sleep because I’m anxious. The love of my life is having a procedure tomorrow and I’m terrified that something will go wrong. It won’t. The odds are stacked against that but lets not bring common sense to a 3 am rambling! The seasons are changing – I […]

Alex. I’m here.

“People who dream when they sleep at night know of a special kind of happiness which the world of the day holds not,” Are you nervous? You’re talking very fast. Of course, I answer. And we drive into the sunrise. My mind and mouth running stories and Skye yawning off nausea. We looked at Pinterest […]

Say something, I’m giving up you …

A week before I left my ex I sent it to him and his response was ‘you and your songs’. The other day I was driving and I flipped to a playlist and this song came up. I pulled over to listen to the words – I’m a songs with words kinda person (also dancing […]

Compartments in my heart

I’ve come to realise I can be happy for you and sad for me all at the same time. Does your heart do that too? Have compartments to it? I’m happy today because my love is hanging out with her daughter. I’m sad for me because it’s cold and grey and the day seems long. […]

I woke up to this, this morning…

It was before dawn, I passed my love and a bouncing LiLi (it has to be said like this) on my way back from the loo. We climbed back into bed with two Jerk Russells between us and a moody Luna (who no-one understands at the moment) gruffling around trying to find herself, I guess! My […]